tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-217790722011-04-22T02:13:29.878+08:00SHANhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09353427082986584560noreply@blogger.comBlogger21100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21779072.post-1138750354843353642006-02-01T23:33:00.000+08:002006-02-01T07:32:34.853+08:00Everyone person at certain point of time experiences it. But even after experiencing is always confused what it really is .No matter how many attempts one make still is far away from deciphering the mystery that is love. True love …well for that matter even normal love is a tricky business. Poets have written on it, authors have elaborated on it, psychologists have written thesis on it but till date no one has been able to come up with a definitive answer to what it is.<br />I have always wondered what it is. Once I thought I too had hopped on to the bandwagonl. It was like a long due renaissance in my life I had been waiting for so long. A event that would give me a purpose to live , reach deep down and fight depression ,develop the will to live again. It was like a new beginning I had been waiting for so long. Suddenly the morning was as bright as before. I started enjoying the birds chirping. All the little things I had been missing for so long I started to enjoy. I couldn’t emphasize on it enough but it was as if the shackles that bound me to my misery had been unlocked and I had been given a passage to heaven.<br />Since the moment I first met her I realized I was totally heads over heels over her. She was this amazing girl who made the girl I dreamed about look like a big fat hairy giant. Every morning I woke up with her thought in mind hoping to catch just one glance of her. Her one glimpse was enough to carry me through the day. I thought I was falling in love with her(well u know how guys wrk;)….fall in love within a snap)She became the closest of my friend, reaffirmed my faith in the people and trusts them. Made me believe in myself and made me go on. Everything was going fine. We had become the best of the friends, used to spend most of the time together, would literally used to live together It was like one magical boat ride with a perfectly romantic backdrop which was cruising its way to a perfect journey. It seemed that she also liked me. <br />But then the truth got the better of me. I forgot that I didn’t had the right to dream. She said that she was already in love. The dream I had been living for so long was shattered. My world of dreams vanished, all the dreams I had cherished of sharing with her just vanished into thin air. I was pulled back to the rotten reality that was life, the life I had been living for the past 17 years it all came back rushing back to me. Life was a total mess. I felt that I had hit the rock bottom and it was just getting worse. The past had come back to haunt me and I was reliving it. I was alone all over again. But I wasn’t totally alone I still had she but she had no idea about my feelings. She had innocently confided in me trusting me as a friend. I can still vividly recall the day. Just the thought of it scares me to death. I was scared lost and broken. Little did she realize that the voice she mistook to be of surprise was that of a person whose soul had been brutally ripped apart from him…<br />Since then every day has been a torture. Living a false life putting up a false front to cover my emotions which wouldn’t go away and just keep growing at a geometric rate with every passing day.<br />Well life is an irony,and considering my life long search for irony this was my first hand experience with it<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21779072-113875035484335364?l=rrevolution.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>SHANhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09353427082986584560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21779072.post-1138748993435872892006-02-01T07:08:00.000+08:002006-02-01T07:09:53.436+08:00A new habbit am starting to cultivate.....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21779072-113874899343587289?l=rrevolution.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>SHANhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09353427082986584560noreply@blogger.com0